Monday, July 26, 2010
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11:39 PM
i once wrote in my facebook that "distance make me feel insecure.."
insecure not just because of the other party.. but for myself as well.
I cant wake up from my dreams.. i knew that dreams are never real.. but what if it's real?
i tried to make myself think clearly but still conclusion is there but somehow not distinctive enough.
mq, chris.. everyone around me have their own problems as well.
but do others understand my situation.. no they don't.. they criticize.. but i can understand.
Yes, life is difficult to walk, but any routes or paths you take..is something that should come from the bottom of your heart.
I am just too indecisive.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
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3:27 AM
i made my choice today
1 person only have the choice of 1 route to take.
you can't split up to take 2 routes.
time is the major factor to all kind of situations.
it affects all situations at most of the time.
i wish time could stop at july 22. the day where i need not try to decide.
i hate myself
PS: thanks alot..
Saturday, July 17, 2010
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3:21 PM
as time passed day after day,
i realized that I, myself is also afraid of this ticking time.
The reason - It never stops. Forever ticking.
I realized how much I want to have but i couldn't.
Where this feeling is derived from. i don't know.
I lost my way. The route which I am supposed to walk. It splits up. everytime asking me to choose.
and i have no idea. i am unsure. i feel so helpless. :(
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
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1:48 AM
have you ever wondered what does "connection" really means?
this strong connection..
*sigh*
this feeling hard to define.
teach me?
I cried. Feel so helpless. Feel so selfish.
conclusion: SMT is definitely selfish.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
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3:09 PM
everything has not revert back to normal.
problems arising more than normal.
solutions that couldn't work out in all ways.
my brain and my heart are not synchronizing.
i need a shoulder to lean on seriously.
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12:31 AM
i guess i had to admit.
that i'm used to having him around.
and i tend to rely on guys more than myself.
i miss him.
Jh will be back in less than 54 days.
faster come back!! I need you.
A shoulder to lean on. :(
A hug to tell me that everything is alright.
I miss you.
Monday, July 5, 2010
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3:16 AM
things change because of the one choice you made.
I'm sorry i made the wrong choice because
I don't know how to say the word "no".
If time could reverse,
I'll make sure that everything is kept under control.
I will keep away from things that is beyond my control.
Avoid. is one of the better choice we can make.
I am sorry.
